proof of life
alright well i canceled my paid subscription for bearblog since i haven’t updated since march. it feels bad to step back from this whole blogging thing but it would feel worse if i wasn’t spending my time on zines and other merch for my main project, tinyshrines.com.
(for the record, i love bearblog and hope to have a paid subscription when i’m making actual money again.)
i also reverted back to using my name as my handle here because i gave up on anonymity. if you‘re a meddling family member lurking this right now: welcome. i wish you’d mind your own business but hey maybe your lurking is training me to be more comfortable with myself.
today i felt depressed and like the future is hopeless and like i’ll never make something of myself and that i’m too old to be doing the things i’m doing and that nobody understands me and nobody ever will but otherwise i’ve been really happy and productive. i think tomorrow i’ll snap out of it <3